Welcome, everyone and no-one. I've decided to open up a blog where I can voice my opinions, although they will only serve to waste space, especially if you consider that nobody can register or post anything here.
My current rant? Space Station 13, among one. The things I create are nice, but it seems only my work on Cowed has attained any sort of attention. Those within what's left of the SS13 community tend to join "Goonstation", which is a server hosted by a large group of people from the SomethingAwful forums, leaving my server empty.
I had made all these nice additions to my version of SS13. The Heroes powers were quite nice and made for nice role-playing on occasion. Unfortunately, it died out due to the massive amount of griefing that ensued with the stronger powers.
What saddens me greatly is that this work has now gone to waste. I've worked on redoing those powers, but they aren't being used. But what really makes me sad is that I still feel an urge to play with those powers, running around as "Peter Petrelli" mimicing the powers of others and trying to do battle with evil villains.
But this kind of role-playing never got started and has now completely died out. The only people who play SS13DL nowadays are those who aren't even worthy to play on Goonstation - though I've heard abuse occurs there on a regular basis - and the only one hosting it right now is some guy who is making everybody that logs in an administrator and runs around killing people with powers.
It is sad day when looking at my hobby. Luckily, my work at school is progressing. I just find it depressing that I'm more enthusiastic about my school work than my hobby. Isn't the whole point of a hobby to be satisfied with it?
Throughout the years I've seen several games pop up, and I've met up with several ways to manage a game. Some take the professional side, thinking of programmers as slaves who are forced to work on one particular thing endlessly. This is the reason I don't even desire to work for a game as I feel I'll lose all of my free will to be forced to work on one particular thing or another.
There's also a way of running a game which people seem to think of as "casual": I'm the only one doing any work, and any other developers just sit back and relax, focusing on school work as if I don't have the same pressures and things to do than them. I suppose this is because I'm a no-lifer and I get bored when I have nothing to do. (I made a blog, didn't I?)
Everyone seems to forget that this is still all a hobby. Ever since day one I came to BYOND thinking of making games and other wondrous things, but during all of this I have considered it to be a hobby; something I do for fun. It seems that nowadays, everyone just wants to take the fun away.
My hope is that someday I will find someone who understands me who also happens to be able to be a pixel artist, and we can both work together to make an awesome game. Unfortunately I think that person simply does not exist, as my case is very unique. I hope at least that I can work on a former project of mine and at least get that off the ground, since that's where this hobby of mine started.
It's been a rough nine years on BYOND. I've been banned, unbanned, banned again (gee whiskers) and finally dodged that ban so many times that even the powers of be had decided to give me a chance in favor of going on even more witchhunts because of me. In all those years, I've gained quite some experience; yet in the end I can't put it to very good use because making a game the way people want me to just isn't me.
Let's hope that at least these small games will turn into something worthwhile. If not, my time has been surely wasted.
With love and care I remain,
Data
